Hello middle man, please step into my office. Huh? What’s that?
Why you say?
Because you’re fired.
I always want to have the best stuff up here as possible in case my future agent stops by and realizes today is the day, if I have something amazing posted, she’s going to offer me that book deal. And then I was reading a post by WSL (Worlds Strongest Library) and he quotes Seth Godin,
If someone can write down your job description, they can find someone to do your job cheaper. There’s no job description that describes being yourself.
I was thinking the other day (you’ve been warned) that I used to be quite witty; funny actually… although that’s what people say when they’re not funny. Do crazy people know they’re crazy? And then I started to wonder if I still was or if any humor comes through in my writing at all. Of course I also wondered once if I was a sociopath since someone smarter than I suggested they always seem to know just what to say and how to make people happy. And now I’m realizing that anyone that says they’re witty probably isn’t.
I’m tired of writing correct. Laboring over every sentence and thinking about grammar. So from now on, I’m just writing. However it comes out. My thoughts from head to fingers to screen. I’m firing the middle man, the one who tells me there’s a better way to say something or I should Google that word to make sure it’s spelled correctly or used in the right context. Sometimes people who write like this annoy me, sometimes I find it liberating and fun. Maybe this doesn’t sound any different to you than how I normally write… hmm, I didn’t think of that. Oh, well, it feels different, freeing. I always felt that short quick sentences made me sound angry. Do I sound angry? I don’t feel angry… wait maybe I am. Angry that I can’t just dish out these posts quickly and that I try to make every single post on here the best it can be. Actually angry is a strong term, I don’t get angry; frustrated maybe.
So I’m letting it go…. ahhh, I feel better already. Have I told you all lately how much I love you? No? Well then, I love you. Yes you reading this (I’m not talking to myself now I’m talking to you the reader) I love you. Thanks for reading this.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my writing… like, am I a writer? If I had a choice would I do this every day of my life? Actually, with all the other sites and online stuff I’m working on I pretty much do write every day. I like it; I think overall I’m passionate about it. I’m in the middle of reading Career Renegade by Jonathon Fields (along with a few others); it really makes you look at your passions in a different way. I love it; having passions.
If I ever want to become a professional writer, I need practice; I need to try different things. So that’s what I’m doing; I’m trying to write more freely. Hope you like it, if not, go somewhere else. Gasp; did I really just say that? You know I love you and don’t want you to go, and I seriously doubt my beautiful style of writing is what keeps you around.
I’m grateful for the movie Bruce Almighty, besides being a great movie it’s helped me stop misspelling b-e-a-u-ti-ful
I’m going to try and be more free with my writing here because… well, you want to know how much money I make off this blog? Zero. Actually that’s not true; as of March 21, 2010 I’ve made $4.98 from an affiliate sale on one of the books I used to have in my sidebar. This is OK because I never really started this blog to make money anyway. Of course I’d be lying if I said I didn’t hope deep down somewhere it would create a six figure income, but I doubt that will happen. What is totally cool is all the people that write me and tell me what a great job I’m doing. Obviously not very many people comment on my blog, but I don’t let it bother me because I’m not seeking acceptance. I’m just sharing my experience and hopefully someone gets some value out of it. You may also notice that I do not post the number of blog subscribers I have like some other high profile blogs. I guess I wanted everyone to think this blog was followed by thousands of people… truth is, you’re one of 148 subscribers. This is totally cool because that means you’re that much more special to me!
So what’s the future of How To Be Happy… Hmmm, who knows… like my spirituality and view and experience with happiness it evolves over time. At the current moment I’m working on fifteen other web site properties (and adding more constantly) in addition to my full-time job and my amazing life as a husband and grandfather. I absolutely LOVE my life and everyone in it; including writing on this blog. And as many of you know, I hate setting expectations because they only lead to resentments. So I’m not setting any expectations for
Spiritual Zen myself. 😉 Well, that’s it for now, I’m hitting publish!
Have I told you how much I love you lately?